Waiting. Wishing.

I really didn't want to spend another night pregnant, but here I am at 2:30am still pregnant and writing this post because I can't sleep. I'm not a complainer, and I consider myself very tolerant, but the nights are the hardest and I'm going to start complaing now.

When everything settles and there are no more distractions from the day, I'm left to wonder will tonight be the night? Tomorrow? Another week? It's torutre. Compound that with the inability to get into a comfortable position, it's a recipe for no sleep.

Yes, I've been told it all--to enjoy this time before the baby comes, to get as much sleep as possible, to relax and take it easy. Yes, I'm grateful to be pregnant, and I'm grateful I've been able to carry this baby full-term. Yes, I recognize there are women who would give anything to be where I am. I get all that, but it doesn't mean I can't express myself either. I want to have ths baby real bad! Tonight I wept in the darkness trying to will myself into labor, but no amount is wishful thinking can make that happen.

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  1. Hang in there momma! I know that feeling all too well! But the good news is no one has ever stayed pregnant forever ;) My first was ten days late and it was the absolute worst watching my due date come and go. She will be here before you know it and this will all be quickly forgotten. Thinking happy thoughts that today is your day! You've just made such a comfortable home for her in there she doesn't want to leave yet! Mommas girl already ;) xoxxo

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  2. I always tried to trick myself into thinking my due date was later than the doctor said, just so I wouldn't get so frustrated when I was late. .. It didn't work.

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