The Winds of Change

I know things are about to change in a major way, and as excited I am about this, I can't help but feel emotional and to be honest sad at times. I am going to miss my life with just Nathan. I like my life just the two of us. The other night, while cuddling with Nathan in bed, I wept a little thinking about this but Nathan rubbed my back and gave me some comfort. This month marks our fifth anniversary, and seven years together. I wouldn't change anything about the life Nathan and I have spent together so far. We have been blessed with great things. In five years we've traveled to Hawaii twice, NYC twice, San Francisco twice, and taken various small trips and done some other great things. Nathan got his degree and I became a teacher. We bought our house and we've enjoyed decorating it together. We are in a great place to welcome a child into our wonderful world, and we have the means to provide a happy life for this baby, but this life Nathan and I have will never be the same. People say it is all worth it, and I am certain it is, but it's a place I've never gone so there are a lot of unknowns. I am sure these emotions are normal...at least I hope they are. As much as I am scared of the change that is coming, I am equally as excited about it. I am looking forward to being a mother to this little guy. I know he will just be the cutest thing.

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  1. I so know what you are talking about.
    hang in there .. it's all gonna be good :) I'm sure baby will be happy and sooo sooo cute :)

    greetings from this side of the world

    :*

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  2. I got tears reading this! There is always uncertainty with the unknown in life! It is so natural for you to feel this way! You and Nathan are in a great place in your lives for a child! You both have great careers and a beautiful home!
    I have no doubt that you both will rise to the accasion!
    It will not be easy that is for sure, raising Caitlyn has been the most challenging thing Sean and I have done so far!
    But the key is you have each other and your relationship is strong and raising a child will only make you too closer together, if that is possible! :)
    When little Hudson comes on that special day, it will be a feeling you and Nathan have never felt before! You will look into each others eyes and think wow we created this beautiful life...... And yes you will never be the same!

    I am always here for you my dear best friend! Love you xoxo

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  3. I had those same feelings right before I had Lucy. They made me very nervous. I felt like I shouldn't feel that way for some reason. But, I think it's a good thing now! If you weren't sad, I think your relationship with your husband isn't quite where it should be to bring a baby into the mix. Once Hudson is here though, you will forget all about what it was like when it was just the two of you. I honestly can't really remember what it was like, and I also think that's a good thing. This is a wonderful change, and it sounds like you guys are perfectly ready for it. Congratulations!

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  4. you have had a good life so far, but I am so excited for you to start this new chapter!! Plus, he really will be the cutest guy!
    :)

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  5. Although I am definitely not as far along as you are, I am starting to feel those winds of change too! In some ways, I'm SO EXCITED to be a mom, but in some ways, I'm really anxious because life will NEVER be the same. I know there will be struggles, but there will be so much joy too! Good luck in the next few weeks as you enter into motherhood. I know you will be a fabulous mother!

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